Perjalanan seorang musafir…..

Dengan Nama Allah Yang Maha Pengasih Lagi Maha Penyayang.

Kini tiba musim Sejuk datang untuk mengantikan musim Luruh dalam menemaniku selama beberapa bulan. Lidah menjadi kelu apabila hendak mengeluarkan apa yang terbuku dalam hati.

Berat…..Terasa sangat berat…..

Diri ingin mengeluh namun bibir ini sangat bisu untuk mengungkapkan apa yang terbenam di dalam hati.

Hati terluka, hati tersinggung, hati terguris, namun masih memujuknya dengan meningatkan Yang Maha Penyayang….

Air mata sahaja yang dapat menemani diri sendiri…….

Ya Rahim janganlah Engkau biarkan daku merasa diriku bersendirian.

Ya Khaliq janganlah Engkau buat diriku lupa akan segala nikmat yang Engkau beri untukku.

Ya Rabb janganlah Engkau biarkan diriku kalah dengan nafsu&janji-janji palsu musuh-musuh kami, nauzubillahmin zalik.

“Nabi Nuh berkata: Wahai Tuhanku! Sesungguhnya aku berlindung kepadaMu daripada memohon sesuatu yang aku tidak mempunyai pengetahuan mengenainya dan jika Engkau tidak mengampunkan dosaku dan memberi rahmat kepadaku, nescaya menjadilah aku dari orang-orang yang rugi.” (11:123)

Dengan Nama Allah Yang Maha Pengasih Lagi Maha Penyayang

Di kala hati gursang tiadalah yang lebih baik penghibur hati ini melainkan Engkau Ya Rabb

Di kala hening malam di mana para makhluk lain melelapkan mata, aku ingin berdua denganMu Sang Pencipta alam…

Di kala orang bergembira dengan dunia mereka aku tak duduk selesa kerana mengingatkan bertapa ngerinya nerakaMu….

Di kala mereka asyik dengan kemewahan dunia aku berdoa moga Engkau meletakkan dunya di tanganku…

Di kala hati sedih dengan apa yang terjadi, hati ini jugalah berdoa semoga Engkau meningkatkan kesabaran Ya Rahman…

Di kala diri tidak boleh menerima takdir yang Engkau tetapkan, diri ini juga meminta kekuatan dari Mu Ya Rahim…

Di kala hati ini terguris, hati inilah juga yang tidak-tidak henti bertasbih mengingatkan diriMu ya Rabb

Tiada yang mengerti apa yang terjadi melainkan diriMu Yang Maha Mengetahui…

Tiada yang dapat merasai apa yang hambaMu ini rasai melainkan Engkau Ya Rabb….

Tiada yang faham akan apa yang telah berlaku melainkan Engkau Ya Allah ….

Sungguh takdir itu adalah milikMu….tiada siapa tahu apa yang akan terjadi di hadapan kelak…..

Sungguh Engkau lebih dekat kepada ku dari aku dekat kepadaMu, Yang Maha Penyayang

Hanya kepadaMu lah aku menyerahkan segala-galanya ya Allah …..

Hanya kepadaMu jugalah aku mengadu ya Rahman….

Dengarlah luahan hambaMu yang dhaif lagi hina ini ya Allah ….

Berikanlah hambaMu ini kekuatan….

Biarlah cintaku hanya untukMu…

Biarlah rinduku hanya milikMu….

Biarlah hatiku hanya khas buatMu ya Rabb…..

Kemudian jika mereka berpaling ingkar, maka katakanlah (wahai Muhammad): Cukuplah bagiku Allah (yang menolong dan memeliharaku), tiada Tuhan (yang berhak disembah) melainkan Dia; kepadaNya aku berserah diri dan Dialah yang mempunyai Arasy yang besar. (9:129) 

Allah tidak memberati seseorang melainkan apa yang terdaya olehnya (2:286)

….boleh jadi kamu benci kepada sesuatu padahal ia baik bagi kamu dan boleh jadi kamu suka kepada sesuatu padahal ia buruk bagi kamu dan (ingatlah), Allah jualah Yang mengetahui (semuanya itu), sedang kamu tidak mengetahuinya.(2:216)

 Patutkah manusia menyangka bahawa mereka akan dibiarkan dengan hanya berkata: Kami beriman, sedang mereka tidak diuji (dengan sesuatu cubaan)? Dan demi sesungguhnya! Kami telah menguji orang-orang yang terdahulu daripada mereka, maka (dengan ujian yang demikian), nyata apa yang diketahui Allah tentang orang-orang yang sebenar-benarnya beriman dan nyata pula apa yang diketahuiNya tentang orang-orang yang berdusta.(29:2-3)

… dan janganlah kamu berdukacita (terhadap apa yang akan menimpa kamu), padahal kamulah orang-orang yang tertinggi (mengatasi musuh dengan mencapai kemenangan) jika kamu orang-orang yang (sungguh-sungguh) beriman. (3:139)

In The Name of Allah The Most Gracious The Most Merciful

It feels like it was yesterday I’d my first niat to fast in Ramadhan. It feels like it was yesterday I had sahur with my beloved fam as well as sungkai. It feels like it was yesterday I was surrounded with my habibis in my home……. Time flies so fast knowing that today is Eid. Subhanallah, Alhamdulillah, Allahu Akhbar…. Feels so sad that Ramadhan is leaving, hopefully by this Ramadhan, we’re improve and so does our amalan-amalan and ibadah-ibadah so that we can maintain or even better upgrade them til next Ramadhan inshaAllah.Feel so happy when we’re going to celebrate Eid on Wednesday*which is today* instead of yesterday, feel like Allah gives so many gifts to me:D heehee Why? because I don’t have so many classes today, I only had 1 class atu pun sekejap saja, a brief intro on what are we going to do for the whole year for Geotechnics . I woke up a little bit late than I expected =( in fact I don’t like that, anyhoo then I didn’t go to sleep as usual so I do all my errands *almost all thou* then get ready to go to masjid for Sunnat AidilFitr prayer with my new baju raya, Alhamdulillah.* It was my first time AidilFitr prayer!!! :D  It’s so exciting! I know, sakai-ing but then siuk~ =D* Then I was invited to go to my friends’ house to raya-ing and guess what did they serve??? It’s Ayam rendang and ketupat~ huhu best~ Then after that-so-called-short-lecture, around at 5+pm I went to other house, a sisters’ house, and nyum nyum there I got to eat many various type of Ayam rendang, ketupat, lemang, and not forgetting kuih raya! They even served lotong! =)

That’s what I said as a gift….. a wonderful, best gift from my beloved Allah ;) Allah really gives so many nikmat and yet sometimes we don’t realise that….. =(

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My dua for you and me, may we meet the next Ramadhan again in our best of iman and taqwa ameen. May we belong to beloved sahabats, mujahids, syuhadahs and those who believe and have faith on Our Creator, ameen.

In The Name of Allah The Most Gracious The Most Merciful

I’ve only got less than 18 hours to go….Alhamdulillah, almost all my stuffs are well-packed in my luggage, only some raya stuffs and little stuffs to be packed tomorrow inshaAllah. Happy? Sad? Excited? Want to cry? Ermz I don’t know what to say or feel? Ntahlah….But the thing is I don’t really feel them thou, not until tonight when suddenly I feel all of them. It’s like a mixture of all. I met my habibis this morning and met my other habibis from other liqa’ in the afternoon, Alhamdulillah I still could meet them before I off to a place where I started to learn so many things on raising kalimah thoiyyibah other than staying in my liqa’ *well I blamed my self for this thou*.

I was chatting with my two habibis, Ukh M&H. Kind of curhat with them, I am so going to miss them and so do the others habibi. We’d a blast liqa’ just now, eventhou I came a lil bit late, asif jiddan! I could feel something is missing but as what Ukh M said that husnuzhon, inshaAllah…. but I hope I could meet her before I off tomorrow and give her what I’ve been planned to. Bi iznillah, may Allah make things easy for me tomorrow.

It’s tomorrow……So gonna miss all of them. Asif jiddan to all akhwats for all my wrong doings…. InshaAllah we’ll meet again next year if there’s a will. Ingat ana dalam doa rabithah antuna. *hugz*

Oh and of course I’ll be missing my beloved fam too, gonna miss bullying my ayah heehee*well he did bully me too!* and helping my babu *=D* &making noise at Darul F where they could hear my voice filling the air inside it huhu =P

To my close friends, too bad I didn’t really spend time with you all especially H, I miss hanging out with you all too….. M, take a very good care of yourselves, be strong *you know what I mean =D*…… 

To all my beloved fam, akhwats and friends! Ana uhibbukum fillah fiddunya wal akhirat! *hugz*

قَالَ رَسُوْلُ اللهِ صَلَّى اللهُ عَلَيْهِ وَسَلَّمَ: ثَلاَثٌ مَنْ كُنَّ فِيْهِ وَجَدَ حَلاَوَةَ اْلإِيْمَـانِ: أَنْ يَكُوْنَ اللهُ وَرَسُوْلُهُ أَحَبَّ إِلَيْهِ مِمَّا سِوَاهُمَا ، وَأَنْ يُحِبَّ الْمَرْءَ لاَ يُحِبُّهُ إِلاَّ لِلَّهِ ، وَأَنْ يَكْرَهَ أَنْ يَعُوْدَ فِى الْكُفْرِ كَمَا يَكْرَهُ أَنْ يَلْقَى فِى النَّـارِ.

(رَوَاهُ الْبُخَارِى وَمُسْلِمٌ وَغَيْرُهُمَا)

Sabda Rasulullah SAW.: “Tiga perkara yang barangsiapa terdapat (ketiga-tiga perkara itu) padanya nescaya dia memperolehi kemanisan iman (iaitu) Allah dan Rasul-Nya adalah lebih dia cintai daripada selainnya (Allah dan Rasul), dan dia mencintai seseorang semata-mata kerana Allah , dan dia benci untuk kembali kepada kekufuran (maksiat) sebagaimana dia benci dilemparkan ke dalam api”.

(Hadis Sahih Riwayat Bukhari dan Muslim dan lain-lain)

 

Akhir kalam, leave you all in Allah ’s care =’)

 

In The Name of Allah , The Most Gracious, The Most Merciful

Alhamdulillah alhamdulillah alhamdulillah, praise to Allah , last night it went well eventhough kind of tiring but it’s fun, may Allah bless our night. We held a doa selamat plus sungkai-ing. Jazakumullahu khairan kathira to all akhwats that came and to those who didn’t, it’s ok, I knew that you all had other commitments, doa antuna are more I needed :D

For sure when they’re gathering and sitting in one place, all my aunts were like looking at us, and I was like, please salaam my aunts heehee and guess what? One of my aunts did ask me after they preforming their terawih, when all of you went back home, N’s still there with me, it’s been a while since we talked til late night huhu I miss her~ Anyhoo, the story is like this….

My mom’s calling me while I was busy selecting kuih to eat with N. My mom told my aunt about our organization K and she did ask lots of questions like who’s inside there, what did you do, who’s the founder…….typical questions and alhamdulillah she’s happy with my answers. To my surprise, she puji all my friends that came*that means you sisters have done a really treffic job huhu* alhamdulillah. She loves seeing my friends like that*the way you all look I bet =P* not like teenagers nowadays in Mall where they’re small quantity of girls that wear hijab unlike during her era. She complaint that it’s such an eye sore when going to the mall when seeing the girls with their outfits yang ketat lagi menjolok mata where you can see their pusat and at the back~*When she explained it in detail on this, suddenly I remember this words,”….pergi ke tempat pusat-pusat di mana awak boleh nampak banyak pusat-pusat kat sana.”**do ask me in detail if you don’t get this =)***

Then my mom also complaint that I rarely at home, always went out to join the activities and she was saying, once Im in UK then I’ll be searching for her~awww~*huhu smile saja when she said like that, sempat lagi tu~* But my aunt tolong me, she was like, at least the activities are good and she even asked whether we’re thinking of opening a stall to spread Islam huhu =D

Alhamdulillah, I was so happy that almost all my family knows who are the people I always hang out with, the hijabis who really cover their aurat as stated in Quranul Kareem, the muslimahs who inshaAllah are going to be quratulain to the people out there, jazakumullahu khairan kathira to all my beloved akhwats =D *hugz* Ana uhibbukum fillah, fid dunya wal akhirat.

Sesungguhnya Engkau tahu
bahwa hati ini telah berpadu
berhimpun dalam naungan cintaMu
bertemu dalam ketaatan
bersatu dalam perjuangan
menegakkan syariat dalam kehidupan

Kuatkanlah ikatannya
kekalkanlah cintanya
tunjukilah jalan-jalannya
terangilah dengan cahayamu
yang tiada pernah padam
Ya Rabbi bimbinglah kami

Lapangkanlah dada kami
dengan karunia iman
dan indahnya tawakal padaMu
hidupkan dengan ma’rifatMu
matikan dalam syahid di jalan Mu
Engkaulah pelindung dan pembela

“And He has united their (i.e. believers) hearts. If you had spent all that is in the earth, you could not have united their hearts, but Allah has united them. Certainly He is All-Mighty, All-Wise.”(8:63)

In The Name of Allah , The Most Gracious The Most Merciful

I kind of want to update but don’t really know what to say, well there’re a lot of stuffs that I want to say but suddenly nada cia. So here I guess I just want to post something that is light for us. Asif jiddan for my absence, kind of busy too, well I did have some free time but seriously kind of blank to write anything.

Since we’re in the month of bless, allow me to talk on Ramadhan Kareem inshaAllah eventhough I may not be the best person to talk on this. Do you believe me that I used to feel norm when it comes to Ramadhan. Everyone is looking forward to Ramadhan including me but the thing is I don’t really feel the excitement, apatah lagi Raya Aidilfitri. So I chose to know more on Ramadhan. So I read that in this bless month, all our pahala will be doubled, how modesty Allah is that? Then the first 10 Ramadhan are full of His bless, the middle 10 days are full of His Forgiveness and the remaining 10 we can ask for His jannah and it’s the time for Lailatul Qadr. Really hope that I could get all the nights to be closer to Him for He is The Best Listener, for He is The Most Understandable, for He is The Best Place To Whine……..

Ramadhan is the month that we want to get closer to our Creator. It is when we practise ourselves to wake up early to solat tahjuud before solat subuh, it’s when we want to do taddabur and recite quran and finish 30 juz in one month. Hopefully we could consistently do that in our daily life, not only in Ramadhan but let Ramadhan be the beginner month of us doing all that, bi iznillah.

Alhamdulillah I realise that now eversince I know islam deeper, the REAL islam that should have been known by all the muslim, there’re differences being in this full bless month. Before this I might only fast, solah terawih,witir&tadarus but never really feel why I have to, this is what it means by adat I presume. You know that you have to do all that and when people ask you then you will say because Allah asks us to do that but then  it’s a typical answer for us is nt it? Actually you do that because everyone does that and then it’s something good then you do it too but never know why actually you have to do it. Alhamdulillah may Allah guides me and you how to fulfill my/our Ramadhan, bi iznillah.

I leave you all with this hadith and wise words. May this Ramadhan is better than our previous Ramadhan and tonight is Nuzul Quran, recite and learn our book of heart, Quranul Kareem, and may we recite it with our heart and be one of the Walking Quran.

Rasulullah saw. pernah bersabda mengenainya ;

“Puasa dan Al-Qur’an itu akan memberikan syafaat kepada hamba di hari kiamat. Puasa akan berkata, ‘Ya Rabbi, aku telah menghalangi- nya dari makan dan syahwat, maka perkenankanlah aku memberikan syafa ‘at untuknya.’ Sedangkan Al-Qur’an akan berkata, ‘Ya Rabbi, aku telah menghalanginya dan tidur di malam hari, maka perkenankan aku memberikan syafaat untuknya. ‘Maka Allah memperkenankan keduanyamemberikan syafaat. ”

(HR. Imam Ahmad dan Ath Thabrani) 

Puasa adalah kemanfaatan yang tidak mengandung bahaya. Dengan penyempurnaan puasa ini, Allah swt. akan memberikan hidayah kepada hamba-Nya. Jika Allah memberikan taufiq kepada anda untuk menyempurnakan ibadah puasa ini dalam rangka menaati Allah , maka ia adalah hidayah dan hadiah yang patut disyukuri dan selayaknya Allah dimahabesarkan atas kurnia hiday

ah tersebut. (ISHAB)

Dengan Nama Allah Yang Maha Pengasih Lagi Maha Penyayang

Surat yang sangat menyayat hati khusus utk para mujahid dan para muslimin, bacalah dengan mata hati, pikirkanlah apakah yang akan atau anda hendak lakukan selepas ini. Adakah anda hendak mengatakan,”Oh…kesihannya……” selepas itu, anda balik kepada hidup harian dengan tidak ingin membantu sekalipun, atau anda hendak menjadi seorang yang ingin membantu mereka, adik-adik atau kakak-kakak kita yg diratah dengan tiada perasaan kesihan. Pikirkanlah…..

Fatimah adalah seorang saudara perempuan seorang mujahid yang terkenal di daerah Abu Gharib, yang berasal dari sebuah keluarga yang terkenal kebaikan dan ketaqwaannya. Suatu hari pasukan AS menyerbu rumahnya, dengan tujuan menangkap saudaranya. Namun karena mereka tidak dapat menemukannya, pasukan AS menangkap Fatimah dengan tujuan memaksa saudaranya menyerahkan diri.

Surat tulisan tangan Fatimah, baru-baru ini berhasil diselundupkan keluar dari penjara Abu Gharib, surat ini menggambarkan penderitaan para tawanan wanita akibat perbuatan terntara AS. Segera surat ini tersebar dan menghebohkan kota Baghdad , mengirimkan gelombang yang akan terus berlanjut
ke seluruh Iraq ! *Mafkarat al-Islam* berhasil mendapatkan salinan surat tersebut. *

Bismillahirrahmanirrahiim.* *

*Say He is God the One; God the Source [of everything]; Not has He fathered,
nor has He been fathered; nor is anything comparable to Him.* [*Qur*an*,
Surat 112 *al-Ikhlas*]* *

Saya menulis surat Al-Ikhlas ini karena mempunyai arti yang mendalam bagi saya, dan menimbulkan getaran di hati orang-orang yang beriman.* * Saudaraku mujahidin di jalan Allah * Apa yang dapat kukatakan padamu?* *Saya
katakan, rahim-rahim kami telah terisi dengan janin akibat perkosaan yang dilakukan keturunan kera dan babi itu. Mereka telah menodai tubuh kami,meludahi muka kami, dan merobek-robek Al-Quran untuk digantungkan
ke leher-leher kami. Allahu Akbar.* *

Tidakkah kau mengerti tentang kejadian yang menimpa kami? Betulkah kau tidak tahu ini terjadi pada kami? Kami saudaramu, dan Allah akan meminta tanggungjawabmu tentang kejadian ini kelak.** ** Demi Allah , tidak semalam pun kami lewatkan di penjara ini kecuali mereka mendatangi salah satu dari kami untuk melampiaskan nafsu setannya.. Padahal kami selalu menjaga kehormatan kami karena takut kepada Allah . Takutlah pada Allah ! Bunuhlah kami bersama mereka! Hancurkan mereka bersama kami! Jangan biarkan kami di sini agar mereka bisa bersenang-senang memperkosa
kami,sesungguhnya ini adalah sebuah perbuatan dosa besar di sisi Allah . Takutlah pada Allah akan urusan kami. Biarkan (jangan serang) tank dan pesawat mereka. Datanglah pada kami di penjara Abu Ghurayb.* * Saya saudaramu karena Allah . Mereka memperkosa saya lebih dari sembilan kalidalam satu hari. Bisakah kau bayangkan? Bayangkan salah satu saudaramu diperkosa. Bersama saya ada 13 gadis, semuanya belum menikah..* *
Semuanya telah diperkosa didepan mata kami semua.* *

Mereka melarang kami untuk sholat. Mereka mengambil pakaian kami, dan membiarkan kami telanjang.. Saat surat ini saya tulis, seorang diantara kami telah bunuh diri setelah diperkosa beramai-ramai. Seorang tentara memukulnya di dada dan paha setelah memperkosanya, lalu menyiksanya. Gadis itu kemudian bunuh diri dengan memukulkan kepalanya ke tembok penjara, karena dia sudah tidak sanggup menerima ini. Meskipun bunuh diri dilarang oleh Islam, saya memaklumi perbuatannya** *Saya hanya berharap, semoga Allah mengampuninya, sesungguhnya Dia Maha engampun.* *

Saudaraku, saya katakan padamu lagi, takutlah pada Allah . Hancurkan kami bersama para tentara itu, agar kami bisa beristirahat dalam damai.* * Tolonglah kami, tolonglah kami, tolonglah kami** * Waa Mu*tasimah!.* *

Surat ini telah berakhir, namun penderitaan penulisnya dan para muslimah
belum berakhir.* *
Hatta mataa haadza s-sukuut !!* *
Ini yang sudah kesekian kalinya terjadi..* *Entah berapa lagi akan segera
menyusul* *Kemaren, hari ini dan besok* *Begitu seterusnya..* *

Ya Rabb
nasyku ilaika da’fa quwwatina*
Wa qillata hiilatina *
Allahumma n-shurna nashran adziima*
*Allahuma ‘alaika bil haaula l-kuffar*
*Allahuma ‘alaika biman adzaa l-muslimin..*

catatan: sebarkan agar semuanya bisa mengetahui keadaan ini.

Ya ikhwah, ya akhwat, sungguh, sungguh banyak kerja yang kita kena buat masa ini. Semoga Allah mempermudahkan segala urusan kita utk menyampaikan dan menyeru manusia kepada perkara-perkara yang haq dan mencegah dari membuat perkara-perkara yang mungkar.

Katakanlah: “Inilah jalanku dan orang-orang yang menurutku, menyeru manusia umumnya kepada ugama Allah dengan berdasarkan keterangan dan bukti yang jelas nyata. Dan aku menegaskan: Maha suci Allah (dari segala iktiqad dan perbuatan syirik); dan bukanlah aku dari golongan yang mempersekutukan Allah dengan sesuatu yang lain.”  (12:108)

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In The Name of Allah , The Most Merciful, The Most Gracious

Saying bye bye bye to jahilliyah is very hard, way too hard for us who have been living in this intimidating-fun-full-of-joy dunya. But it’s not impossible saying sayonara or so long or illaliqa to jahilliyah. If sahabat could do it why not us? The best example I could think of is Sadina Umar r.a. I remember this one story where Saidina Umar cried and laugh after that, when he was asked, he answered that he felt guilty of bury his daughter back in his jahiliyyah time and how funny that one day when he’s jalan-jalan and brought his Tuhan along with him and suddenly he hungry and ate his Tuhan(which was made from dates).

But then the question is now how? How to get rid of our jahilliyah? First of all we have to know by heart what are our jahiliyyah. If we don’t know what are our jahilliyah then we might not be able to get it away from our heart, mind and life. So are you ready? :)

Jahilliyah here doesn’t mean era Mekah, masa dulu-dulu zaman Nabi Muhammad saw. But here it means our past time that we knew that what we did was totally wrong and we didn’t like them and we want to get rid of them. We don’t even want a little bit of it stay in our body, our heart and our mind. We as a human being know how to differentiate things right, whether that thing is good or bad for us but then it depends on ourselves whether we want to do it or not, di sinilah bermainnya peranan iman dan nafsu kita. Kalau kita menang dari nafsu kita, maka kitalah orang yang paling berjaya, happy dan rasa nak teriak kat seluruh dunya ne bahawa kita telah mengalahkan bisikan syaitan tu, namun kalau kita kalah dengan nafsu tu, rasa kita tak nak keluar dari bilik sendiri, nak menyendiri, malu dengan orang lain walhal orang lain tak tahupun yg kita kalah dengan nafsu tu.

Tentulah setiap orang perlukan masa untuk berubah. Some might say,”Oh tak pe lah, esok esok lah aku ubah diri aku.” And as well as “Oh tunggu tahun depan or hijrah depanlah baru nak ubah diri sebab ada semangat(because people will start to ask, apa azam baru tahu ne?)” Also many will say,”Oh belum sampai seruan…..” But little will say,”I want to be a better person starting tomorrow, I wanna have a new life, a new beginning.” Ermz but the thing is kekadang kita lupa adakah kita masih punya waktu? Adakah masa akan menunggu kita untuk berubah? Adakah malaikat Israil akan menunggu kita apabila kita dah ready nak jumpa Allah baru nak jalankan tugas dia? Adakah kita yakin kita akan hidup selepas 5 minit ne? The thing is also we must make an effort to change too not just sit there and say,”Esok lusa tah.” Mesti ada niat and action to do it.

It is narrated on the authority of Amirul Mu’minin, Abu Hafs ‘Umar bin al-Khattab, radiyallahu ‘anhu, who said: I heard the Messenger of Allah , sallallahu ‘alayhi wasallam, say:

“Actions are (judged) by motives (niyyah), so each man will have what he intended. Thus, he whose migration (hijrah) was to Allah and His Messenger, his migration is to Allah and His Messenger; but he whose migration was for some worldly thing he might gain, or for a wife he might marry, his migration is to that for which he migrated.”

[Al-Bukhari & Muslim]

“(They are) swaying between this and that, belonging neither to these nor to those, and he whom Allah sends astray, you will not find for him a way (to the truth - Islam).”(4:143)

On the authority of Ibn ‘Umar, radiyallahu ‘anhuma, who said: The Messenger of Allah , sallallahu ‘alayhi wasallam, took me by the shoulder and said:

“Be in this world as though you were a stranger or a traveler/wayfarer.”
Ibn ‘Umar used to say:
“When evening comes, do not expect (to live till) morning, and when morning comes, do not expect (to live till) evening. Take from your health (a preparation) for your illness, and from your life for your death.”

[Al-Bukhari]

Second, we must replace our jahilliyah atu with good things. And we must be very tegas to ourselves jua, discipline diri tani so that we wont go back to our jahilliyah.

Anologi : Sekiranya sebelum ani we have a piece of land yg full of rumput rampai saja but now tani mau it looks nicer and interesting, then tantulah tani mau tanam bunga-bunga untuk jadikan ya gardenkan. Then mestilah tani cabut rumput-rampai atu dengan akarnya sekali supaya nanti once kita tanam bunga ianya inda akan tumbuh in between bunga-bunga yang warna-warni. So same thing with us, if we want to buang our jahilliyah tani mestilah ganti dengan something yang good then tani won’t feel lost instead tani gembira sal ada gantinya daripada ianya kosong which in the end will buat tani kembali kepada jahilliyah atu sendiri.

“O ye who believe! Enter into Islam whole-heartedly; and follow not the footsteps of the evil one; for he is to you an avowed enemy.”(2:208)

“And this is a Book which We have revealed as a blessing: so follow it and be righteous, that ye may receive mercy”(6:153)

Third, we should have friends that could support us and tagur us when we do wrong things. So that we’ll know that there’re people who want to see us jadi baik jua. :) That’s why i really love my sisters, I know that truths always hurtful but if they’re not your friend they won’t say something which is true that could help to improve yourself and they love you that’s why they don’t want you to be in jahanam. :) It’s true right that our environment affects us, so it’s good to be at least meet your good friends once in a week(which we call it as halaqah or usrah).

“Your (real) friends are (no less than) Allah , His Messenger, and the (fellowship of) believers,- those who establish regular prayers and regular charity, and they bow down humbly (in worship).” (5:55)

Last but not least, we’ve to have knowledge too. By reading or sharing thoughts with your good friends, it helps to improve yourself and know what is wrong and right. In addition, by having a knowledge we now can control our whims where before all those times we were controlled by our whims.

“Say: If it be that your fathers, your sons, your brothers, your mates, or your kindred; the wealth that ye have gained; the commerce in which ye fear a decline: or the dwellings in which ye delight - are dearer to you than Allah , or His Messenger, or the striving in His cause;- then wait until Allah brings about His decision: and Allah guides not the rebellious.” (9:24)

To be honest, I’d my own jahilliyah time. My world full of excitement of lagha (lalai) stuffs and non-Islamic things. From music to clothes to way of talking to way of thinking to being emotional to social life. I used to lurvvvvvvvvveeeeeeeeeeeeee JT and NSYNC. Everyone knows who’s JT right? Sapa jua inda. I remember, I would go craaaaaaazzey aka shouting aka gasping to da beri if I heard his name from my sibz telling me that he’s on TV. I would run and the next thing I knew was my eyes were glued on him. Come to think cali jua ah… not to mention that my wardrobe and wall full of his posters too~ Astagafirullah alazim…… Macam I stil could remember that one time, it was so easy for me to delete all lagha songs but him :( It’s very hard for me. But then that one day, I’d to do it jua, no matter what, it’s either I still wanted to be “asyik” with his voice or more closer to Allah ? Dengan hati yang sedih, tangan yang berat, akhirnya jari jemari ini jualah yang mengerakkan button delete itu…… But no worries now I’ve lots of motivated songs and nasyeed and I really in love with them :D

Eventhough I wore tudung and long-sleeves, but they never cover my aurat. Why? It’s because they’re still tight and menjolok mata. When I changed my way of dressing and my babu said,”Ah yatah tu. dulu ditagur inda mau.” The only thing I could do was =D So mcm kiranya mesti dari hati juakn if kan berubah ani, inda boleh main paksa(true pulang~but at times tani mesti pajal diri tani, then barulah boleh meningkat iman tani).

I realised dulu I used to swear a lot and find it coolness. But alhamdulillah I managed to clean my tongue by replacing with zikir and puji-pujian kepada Allah which make me closer to Allah and dpt pahala…kan~ :) (See it’s so easy to get pahala juakan, asalkan we do and leave everything that Allah asks us.)

Come to way of thinking. Ermz let see…..if dulu I would love to think sal dunya dunya dunya and guys! Haha benar~ what else to think jua dulu kan apart from study…eisk eisk eisk cali eh… But alhamdulillah by exposing myself to islam, I found that there’re lots of other valuable stuffs to think of instead of perkara remeh-temeh such as how to bring people to get close to Allah and know who Allah is and who we are. If guys, asal saja ada lelaki handsome angau cia tu lol, but now cannot! Kena pelihara pandangan mata if mau keluarga yang diberkati oleh Allah , kan lagipun Allah suruh jaga pandangan mata. “And say to the believing women that they should lower their gaze and guard their modesty; that they should not display their beauty and ornaments except what (must ordinarily) appear thereof;“(24:31) Lagipun yg paling penting is that lelaki yang beriman dan penyejuk pandangan mata kan? How to know? InshaAllah if he’s the one for you, Allah will make it easy as long as we jaga adab :) inshaAllah. Oh I remember baru-baru ne, at my uncle’s place, the tv was showing this iklan on this chinese guy name Daniel Wu, and to be surprised I still remember his name which my abg E didn’t. Sekalinya he told me that he’s a friend who is more a less mcm c Daniel Wu ani and I was like ah…….(kira inda interested lah) then my other bro, abg M ckp,elah klu dulu tu~ haha and i was like,”Alah~ atu dulu not now.” =D Alhamdulillah.

I used to be very sensitive, to da beri~ including pemarah and kuat nyamal. But now Alhamdulillah I used them in Islamic way. How? Be more sensitive with ummah issues like Palestine, Southern Thailand etc etc. Angry when it comes to people who make fun of Islam and people who do perkara-perkara mungkar. Nyamal…ermz hehe no comment, I try to kurangkan, but I only nyamal around my lovely family and sisters~ :D Iatah tempat kan bermanja kan? :D

My social life was teruk jua come to think. I used to have a lot of boy friends and I did have so-called-my-other-half. I also kuat jalan-jalan dulu, tengok wayang, gossiping, wlupun i din go to party etc etc but my pergaulan with guys really rapat. I used to be ok if sitting next close to them, shoulder to shoulder, beibun, ampas-mengampas, salam-menyalam even though I’d my-other-half. Not to mention my life with my other-half, so memalukan berabishness if terkenang, I’d cry and rasa diri inda layak with brother. =(

I believe everyone has their turning point, I’ve been there, I’ve been in my past time and so did all my beloved sisters so I believe that you also can do it. :) If you think that you’re teruk-er than me, but trust me there’re people teruk-er than you but they also could do it. Just have a faith on yourselves and ask Allah to give you strength. I know semasa berubah atulah mikin banyak cia lagi dugaan-dugaan yang datang ie people will start to pay attention on what you are doing while sebelum ani dorg inda taupun that you’re exist or not, people will find it weird if you start to wear tudung/baju labuh sikit, people will try to critise you if you change your way of thinking to Islamic by saying,”Eh ustazah inda jua buat cani, mengapa pulang kau cani?” oh well~ My sisters and me have been that stage. that’s gonna be another post inshaAllah. For now, you’ve to kikis all karat-karat jahiliyyah in yourself then we’ll move to the next step of how to handle them. inshaAllah :D

I’ll leave you with kata-kata dari Syed Qutb and this lyrics which I found it really meaningful and interesting :)

yang lebih kurang berbunyi,

‘Kita tak akan merasai kemanisan iman sehingga kita merasa sukarnya untuk meninggalkan jahilliyah’

Dalam mengenang kisah hidup silam
Ku sedar dari kesilapan lalu
Tuhan beratnya dosa-dosaku
Masihkah ada ampunan buatku

Tuhan…Dalam menempuh hidup ini
Banyaknya dugaan datang menguji
Tuhan…Ada yang dapatku gagahi
Dan ada yang gagal kuhindari

Tuhan…Dosaku menggunung tinggi
Tapi taubatku tak kutepati
Tuhan…Rahmat-Mu melangit luas
Terlalu sedikit kubersyukur

Kini kukembali pada-Mu
Mengharap maghfirah dari-Mu
Mogakan terampunlah dosa-dosaku
Biarpun ujian melanda
Ku tetap berkasih pada-Mu
Kerna kuyakin kasih-Mu
Kekal tiada sudahnya…

In The Name Of Allah , The Most Gracious, The Most Merciful.

Mood : =’)

Muhasabah :  For Allah knows what’s the best for me.

“But it is possible that ye dislike a thing which is good for you, and that ye love a thing which is bad for you. But Allah knoweth, and ye know not.” (2:216)

Dua : May Allah gives me strength to face all these problems and may Allah gives me strength to accept all the qadar.

In The Name of Allah , The Most Gracious, The Most Merciful

I’d a conversation with my lovely usrah girls this morning. So I asked them what did they think if a married girl have a crush on other guy. Then one of my usrah girls said that we’ve to take care on that and be very careful because yatah tu mainan syaitan arah tani. So kena berjaga-jaga. What we always say when it comes to brothers or guys, “Masalah hati”.

Well it’s fair enough that who doesn’t want to be loved kan? Every girl wants but the thing is we have to very careful and know the limitations. As I said in the previous post, it’s hard to deny if you like someone but only to Allah we can whine. Because only Allah knows what and how exactly we feel on that person for He knows what lies in our heart.

I know the feeling of letting go the person that you love but inshaAllah what we do is to be closer to Allah , inshaAllah. Maybe you will say, “No girl, you don’t know how I feel”, but trust me, I’ve been through numerous things on this so-called-other-half. :) I challenged my self that this is my tarbiyyah too. Who say it’s not pain? As my other usrah girls said, No pain No game :) Allahualam